“Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.” John 16:24
Feathers softly fall like gentle kisses, and that’s exactly what they are. Kisses from God.
I have prayed and asked God for many things throughout my life but I never stopped to pray to ask for something intimate, that’s just from Him. It’s not that I didn’t think it was possible but I was too caught up in asking for things like: “ God help me in this financial problem”, “God send me a husband that loves me for me”, “God seek my daughter/ sons to know you and love you”. I never thought to ask God for something so personal that is just between me and Him so that I could KNOW He loves me, that he sees me in my mess; until one day I did and It was amazing.
I had joined a support group just for women who were in the midst of heartbreak and seeking healing from their husbands porn addiction. The leader of this group has become a dear friend and her love for God is fierce. During a session, she was talking to us about asking God for kisses; a sign just from Him. I immediately thought no way, this is a little silly but I opened my heart and my mind and prayed about it. Honestly, it took me a couple weeks because I think deep down I didn’t believe God would show up like this for me. Finally, one night I said “ok God, I need you. I need to know that you see me, I need to know I can trust you in this because I am scared. God, give me white feathers to let me know you love me.” I was in a desperate place to actually see God working because He felt so far away. So the next day, guess what? A single white feather on the driver side of my car. No bird in the sky, no other feathers around but just one and it was pure white! I began to cry tears of joy and praise because God Saw Me! That was 4 years ago and since then single white feathers will be randomly placed in my path. I see them and praise God for His love for me and I believe. I believe that I can ask God the deepest desires of my heart and he will answer. These feathers have become a shield around me protecting me from doubt and strengthening my love and trust in God.
Maybe you need to change the way you view God. We often say that we have a “personal “ relationship with Him, but do we? Or in the back of our mind do we limit him? Do we believe but feel like he has more important things to do than place a feather on my windshield? Sure when we say it out loud it sounds a lot worse than when it’s in that compartment in the back of our mind. But that’s exactly what we do, we limit the power of God in our lives, often time because we don’t feel worthy or deserving. Not to sound cliche…but let’s be real… He sent his son to die a horrendous death for me and for you. Let him love you intimately in whatever place you are in life. He longs to love on us, that’s why he created us.